I need u

i need u
do i need to tell this?
cant u read my eyes
for u there are a lot of bliss

i want u to be mine
still not able to decide the relation
but i will be on cloud number nine

fighting to myself
inside i m feeling like a craven
but if u cud understand my things
i will be on seventh heaven

i lost all my opportunities
without even thinking of ur importance
but now not able to bear
ur unavoidable ignorance

i see u holding my hand in a mustard field
its 5.30 o clock in evening
cold air is flowing
and our bodies are shivering.

but there are two things which are steady
our hands and our hearts, feeling warmth of each others emotions
and the surrounding is becoming more n more heady
sun has gone down only red sky with bluish background is there
both are welcoming the wind to get colder and colder

we r standing on the bank of a river
watching fishes goes little in the air
i m kicking in the water
watching drops of water going on ur face
and looking at your vibrating eyes

but these all things are black n white
don’t even know is it wrong or right
cause i m not able to decide
what m i doing?
why m i doing?
what is the appellation of these feelings
on the basis of what i m taking horse ride
i m not able to name the relation
what should i call this infatuation
but one thing is in deep inside
holding your hand or just hide

hoping to end this endless summers
when my dreams will get your true colours

MAYANK
copyright 2008
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The Last Step

The last step...

I traveled so much to be here
always dreamed to get there

And to finish this small gap
I need to take a proper last step

But I am insecure
holding tighter

First time feeling sweat
doubt that whether things will meat

My wings are heavy and my back has pain
want to close my eyes and to avoid loss ready to even, leave the gain

Its like essay question of paper
against a pinch hitter last ball of the over

I m remembering all those tough things
where I proved myself 'Lord of the rings'.

Trying to convince myself for sure victory
but still finding this toughest in my history

I am begging for one more day
regretting for wasting yesterday

My all morals are gone for toss
and ready to even cheat to complete the process

Cause I want to mark my feet on the map
and for that I need to take the last step

MAYANK
copyright 2008
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I want that day and Iwant that in my way

I am waiting for the day and I want that in my way,
I want to stand strong and you accept yourself wrong.

I have only one desire that every one admire,
that my beard is a mane and I never wanted an aero plane.

But I dreamed of a thing, to fly I should have wing,
I live with the theme I should swim against the stream.

But I was a child and you were very wild,
I felt a gun on head and ran till I was dead.

My wings could never grow and life for me was sorrow,
I was trapped in stream, I had my broken dream.

I was standing in rain and you never understood that pain,
My hopes were getting thin, who is responsible for that sin?

These all things u did when I was a small kid,
I always hid, when I was a small kid.

I lost confidence to try and neither could I cry,
but inside it was humid when I was a small kid.

But I never broke down cause for her I dreamed of a crown,
I never showed my anger because I would look like a bagger.

Standing on shore I dreamed something more,
that thing provided me new soul and I tried to fill the inside hole.

My destiny is revenge and this should not change,
my dream was new and this is how I grew.

I could see a new ray and waiting for my day,
I am waiting for the day and I want that in my way.

MAYANK
copyright 2008
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